In my "secret identity" I'm not generally attracted to men.
As the me writing this, I'm not generally attracted to women.
Somewhere along the way, I went from wanting a woman to feminise me to wanting a man to do it. A real man, a strong man, who will make me feel small and girlish and feminine...
Apparently this development is not uncommon. So that's something...
It's tricky to define, really. I've had to think about some of the same issues, and will sometimes tentatively describe myself as "translesbian" - a transwoman primarily attracted to women. And if I'm honest I can't deny that my body and my hormones are playing into this - so it's an attraction that's sort of "semi-straight in body but lesbian in terms of soul and sexual expression".
ReplyDeleteI very much see the point of being feminized and "put in one's place" by a man, learning to respect men and their strength and leave due place for them as part of feminization, becoming meek and elegant for him/them, but I'm not quite sure it would happen spontaneously if I were to switch to living full-time as a woman (though initially without any surgery...) and went around trying to get it together with a guy. Certainly it wouldn't happen with just *any* guy, just because he was a guy - it would take a lot more than that, you know...
I suppose what I really want (when I want a man) is an alpha male who will indeed put me in my place...
DeleteYes, and "put you in your place" both with his admiration and care - and in showing that he is very much your Master (and could let you know in not always pleasant ways!) ;)
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